Majority of the time when you come to my home it will not only be clean, but everything has its place and everything must be symmetrical and presenting beautifully. This includes the kids toy room. But I do little tidies throughout the day and when the kids go to bed, that's what saves my sanity. Sounds slightly OCD doesn't it? What you don't know is this doesn't mean it's always that way, heck it's sure as hell ain't. It's trashed constantly throughout the day. Just today I cleaned custard from all over the front of the TV and as I lay here now at 12:10am it looks like nothing further from a shit fight!
My freezer is full of meat, stocked up with milk, bread, sandwiches, baked savouries and sweets. Sure it takes energy to do this, but after that initial use of energy it allows me to be a couch surfing slob the rest of the time.
There is often fresh fruit cut up in the fridge and within a dash I can serve up a healthy treat to my kids, looks like I'm one of those ultra healthy mummies doesn't it?....well to be honest it's not my only reasoning so I can't hold the healthy mummy title. I cut all the fruit up when I buy it and prep it in a way so that it lasts. This is because it's helps to keeps my grocery bill down and saves me time with lunches. I would truely be interrupted all day long by my kids wanting fruit cut up if I didn't.
There is often fresh fruit cut up in the fridge and within a dash I can serve up a healthy treat to my kids, looks like I'm one of those ultra healthy mummies doesn't it?....well to be honest it's not my only reasoning so I can't hold the healthy mummy title. I cut all the fruit up when I buy it and prep it in a way so that it lasts. This is because it's helps to keeps my grocery bill down and saves me time with lunches. I would truely be interrupted all day long by my kids wanting fruit cut up if I didn't.
You will often see me at school drop off or the supermarket beautifully presented. This is for as much your benefit as it is mine, you don't wanna see what this Mumma looks like with only 2 hours sleep. My health means I don't usually get much sleep. Make up and dressing well makes me feel human, that despite my own body hating me I am not a total outcast.
I plan easter, birthday and Christmas way ahead of time. Well to tell you the truth I do love it but I can't be one of those people that leaves it to the week or days before. What happens if I have a flare up? What happens if I'm in hospital that can extend beyond just a couple of days stay? My kids wear a big enough of a burden with my health that I want them to enjoy these magical moments and preserve their childhood innocents as much ask can.
I take lovely happy pics. Life looks perfect!!! Well really who doesn't take pics of nice things and moments. Christ who wants to capture all those tantrums and screwed up Tweens face as they scream that they hate you? But one of my other reasonings is that I want my children to have photos to look back on and read member the good moments. That they were what mattered. Not mummy laid up in bed, having surgeries or constantly in hospital.
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| My cheeky 2 year old, Jaxon. Nickname Jax |
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| My darling 10 year old daughter Lilli-ann. but prefers just Lilli |
But what a lot of you don't know is that I have immense days of pain. I have chronic pain that doesn't care for my daily routine or life's hectic ways. There is no cure, only management. I can't predict high pain days (unless I've done to much and pushed myself too hard). I'm on strong pain meds that can knock me on my backside, but what's the alternative? I'm on a high dose of nerve blocking meds and if I miss a dose the pain I'm in is not only unbearable but when I do take my next dose I'm hit with side effects. So I may appear to be a Supermum, but really all I'm doing is to save me time on high pain days and making sure I'm the best mum I can be on the days that allow me to be. I do this to make up for the days that I'm an ultra shitty mum.
Sometimes we judge on face value without knowing the underlying layers of that persons life. We are all doing the best we can, stuffing up regularly, but with our hearts filled with love. That's how you and I are the same.
As long as we are Supermum's in the eyes of our monsters does it matter what others perceive us as? Hell no, you keep rocking you and what works for your family.
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